Monday, November 8, 2010

Do You Remember When...

You first realized you got fat?  I remember knowing I was gaining weight, but still didn't consider myself fat.  I just wore looser clothes, no biggie, right?

But the minute I tried to put on some thigh-highs and they wouldn't go past my knees, THAT'S when I knew.  I was devastated!  I had never had a scale in my home, so I had no idea I had gained that much weight.  And then it was all downhill from there.

I had to start buying larger clothes.  Several sizes larger.  And then a few years later, I had to buy even bigger clothes!  Even my "fat clothes" didn't fit anymore!  Eventually I had to go to the doctor and I was shocked to find out I weighed 200 pounds!  That's when I started REALLY looking at my body, and when I finally opened my eyes I could see the fat everywhere...my knees, my back, my arms, my face.  I knew I was fat in the tummy, but refused to see it anywhere else.  But when your boobs START underneath your arm pits, well...THERE'S YOUR SIGN!

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Wow, it's really been that long?

I have been extremely computer unfriendly the last several months, but I didn't realize my last post was so long ago!  Yikes!  Sorry to all those faithful followers of mine.  I am planning to post at the minimum once a week from here on out, hopefully more.

Oh, and HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Rolly-Polly Me

Ok, I am not as big as I used to be.  But  I remember being pretty fat, and I remember people asking if I was pregnant when I weighed 175.  Then when I gained more, I never got that reaction again, cuz when I first gained weight, it was all in my tummy.  Then it arrived in my face, my arms, etc.

And considering my height, when I was at my heaviest I looked a lot bigger than I should have.  My largest size was 20, and my top weight was 205.  I am now a size 16, which is more than double when I weighed 135.  Only 35 pounds lighter than I am today.  Most people do not lose 7 sizes with 35 pounds.  Everyone looks different and because I have no muscle, my weight is more fat than anything else.

So yes, I was definitely a rolly-polly.  If I had the nerve I would post a pic of my belly today, but I am too embarrassed by the "overhang." 

I am still a "rolly-polly" but I am learning to live with it.  I would rather be healthy than skinny.  Follow my health journey at my blog "My Health Quest" @ http://jhhealthquest.blogspot.com/

Sunday, April 25, 2010

AAARRRGGGHHH!!!

I have weighed more than my husband for over ten years.  He is 6'3" and I am 5'6".  So he has 9 inches on me!  AND he's a man!  He has weighed (give or take) about 176 since high school (he is 54 now.)  When I realized I lost twenty pounds in the hospital a few months ago, I was ecstatic!  I FINALLY weighed less than him!  YAY!

But then he had to go and get sick this month, and he lost 20 pounds in 3 weeks. 
So now he only weighs about 156, and even though I lost weight, he now still weighs less than me.  WHAT THE HECK?  Is this karma?  I am NOT happy he lost weight due to sickness, please understand.  And OMG, he's 6'3" and at that height 176 pounds is a skinny minny!  Can you imagine 156?

But it's like no matter what, I am gonna be his fat wife.  Even if I lose weight, something happens to keep his weight under mine.  Selfish me, narcissistic me, conceited me...I'm sorry, but I don't want to weigh more than my husband, and I want him to be at a healthy weight!

Ok, so I'm whining.  I don't think he looks any different, but he says his butt is so small, it hurts to sit!  So in all earnestness, I want him to be heavier than me so that he can sit comfortably.  (Did I talk you into believing that?)

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Here's My Beef

I must admit it, I am a die hard fan of the show "The Biggest Loser."  Guilty pleasures and all that.  But I have a big issue...

Most of the women on that show's goal weight is what I weigh now.  So why do their bodies look so much better than mine? 

Granted, those people become athletes, and have much more muscle than I do, and since muscle weighs more than fat, we don't have the same fat content.

But still, it can be so discouraging at times!  I can rationalize it all I want, and I can tell myself "I weigh LESS than that, so I must look that good", but the mirror just laughs at me.  I can't run, I can't hide, I look the way I do.

My son said to me when I was watching the show one time "Mom, why don't you go on that show?"  And I replied "I don't think I weigh enough."  And he looked at me and said "EXACTLY!"

Gotta love your kids!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

To all my loyal readers and followers...

Sorry I have been gone so long...

About 3 weeks ago hubby got really sick, then gave it to me about a week later. Last Monday I went for a followup appointment at my doctor re: my BP and cholesterol. When I got there my oxygen was 89%, and he had me walk around hooked up to the monitor and it dropped to 83% and my pulse was 110. He sent me to the ER and I was admitted to the hospital. I was discharged yesterday. The last question my ER doc asked me was "If you quit breathing, do you want us to take heroic measures to keep you alive?"

I am only 49...that question scared the CRAP out of me. So I really need to change my ways.

Also, at my insistence, Hubby also went to the doc on Monday cuz I told him it was unnatural to be that sick for three weeks. Turns out he had an infection that spread throughout his body. His BP was 103/65. He was also admitted to the hospital and was released today.

I have always said I would die before him, but now I'm not so sure.

Looks like our lives of hard and fast living are catching up to us.

But now that I am better I will be posting again.  If you would like to follow my progress on improving my health, you can do so here @ My Health Quest.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

This is WAY too cute!

Ok, I just HAD to re-post this.  One of my newer followers is Shannon and you can find her blog "Faith Hope & Love" here (be sure to check it out!)  But her daughter also has a blog "Molly's World", and that one can be found here.  So check out hers, too.  She hasn't posted much, but it's cute.

Anyway, one of her posts fits this blog perfectly, so in the spirit of sharing (NOT stealing content) I am re-posting one of Molly's posts (once again...can be found here.)  This was just too cute to wonder if anyone might not want to click on the link.

Shannon, if you find exception to this, please let me know and I will remove it! 

I'm too fat!

Darn I'm too fat to scratch my own patootie!  I guess I'm going to have to go on a diet!

 Have you ever had one of those days where you get an itch on your foot and you're too big to reach it because your stomach gets in the way?  Personally I have never had one of those days but I have had one of those where the itch never goes away!  It's not very fun!!! ~~Written by Molly~~